I am so tired today I can barley keep my eyes open. My body feels so heavy. Just now I had a thought and wonder if it because I have upped my antidepressant. At any rate, I could just sleep and sleep and sleep.
This morning I went to church, this time making sure I had an aisle seat. Being in the middle of a row makes me anxious. When I go to the movie I have to do the same thing. Most people want to be in the middle and thankfully the people I go to the movie with understand and don’t mind too much.
Yesterday I noticed that one of our trees had tent caterpillars. They are invasive and will destroy a tree in a few weeks. The tree they were in has struggled for a long time now and I love this tree so much. We cut the nest down out of the tree. It was only a small nest, about 20 caterpillars in all and they had to be burned or they will just find a new home. I was the one to do that. All night I had dreams about burning caterpillars and this morning I was almost crying. I feel so horrible for killing any living thing. I catch and release flies and wasps. Well, except last week when a wasp stung my husband. I made a pact to kill them but couldn’t follow through. Anyway, I kept seeing the dead caterpillars. From now on my someone else is going to have to take care of them. It was too upsetting for me. Who does that? It’s not normal to be this sensitive.
It’s considerably cooler today. And cloudy. Yesterday it poured rain for about 2 minutes and there was one large clap of thunder then the storm moved on.
My husband bought me this yesterday. I didn’t even know they still made Spirograph!
The news is starting and I don’t want to watch it. My husband loves it and it’s a part of his routine to watch it. I’m going to go elsewhere and try to not fall asleep.