I started this scarf last winter and put it away in the spring. It’s definitely autumn so I am taking it up again. Even though the weather has been sunny it won’t last, this is the Pacific Northwest. The other day someone asked me when it was supposed to stop raining. I told her April.
A few posts back I was talking about Niacin for anxiety. It is working but I think I need a higher dose. I’m not even sure it’s even anxiety that I am dealing with. A few nights ago I watched the beginning of a documentary on earthquakes and so I have been having nightmare about earthquakes. I was so freaked out that I ordered a tent. Honestly, it is something I have wanted to add to our earthquake kit for a while now and they are on sale, but still. I’m also have nightmares about nuclear war. I wake up in fear and then I have an anxiety attack and then I can’t get back to sleep and then I am tired all day and then the day is awful. And so then I have more anxiety. It’s so fucked up. People that don’t have anxiety tell me all sorts of ways to deal with it. Those who do don’t bother because nothing fucking works and we all know it. Actually, that is not true. Pharmaceuticals take the edge off. And by edge I mean I don’t kill myself. I do believe diet can help more than anything, especially supplementing the B vitamins. It is something I am looking into further.
This time of the year is hard. I am so tired all the time. Yesterday I brought out my SAD light. It also helps little. What would really help is being allowed to wake up at not 6:30. It’s a drag starting work at 7:00 in the morning. It’s so…early. meh
OMG! I forgot to give you a bread update! If you don’t know about The Bread People and you are bored and have nothing better to do you can read about The Bread People here. And here. The mystery may be solved because a couple of weeks back, in a completely different part of town I saw bread.
Here. Let’s go in for a closer look.
It could be different bread all together but I have suspicions that it is the same bread. This place is one of the places I work and is low income seniors housing. I am guessing The Bread People get it from somewhere and distribute it to people who can’t afford it.
Okay. That’s all I have. I’m going to go put on my workout clothes and see if I can manage to exercise today.
Addendum – What’s up with the different fonts?