Another Day

What is it with waking up more tired than when I went to bed? This last week I have been sleeping poorly, especially Sunday night. I was having nightmares and woke up at 2:30 and couldn’t get back to sleep. When I went to bed Monday night I saw that I hadn’t taken my medication for anxiety the night before and it was still in its dosette slot. I thought I had taken it. I guess it’s proof that it isn’t a placebo effect. And that it does work. And I should not stop taking it. I have a question. I know many of you do have anxiety. My question is for the ones who don’t. In the last 6 months of so do you find yourself anxious now? Does it help you understand how it is to feel so nervous and scared now when you didn’t before?

Today is an out of sorts day for me. It’s definitely October. It’s dark and cool and rainy. My heart feels heavy and I’m not really sure why. Just, all of it, you know? What are we doing to ourselves?

One thing that helps me is chanting. This chant was written by Master Sha.

“Master Sha was the recipient of the Martin Luther King, Jr. Commemorative Commission Award for his outstanding work in promoting peace.”

Master Sha asked for a chant to bring peace to the planet and this is what he was given. It makes me cry every time I listen and chant. In the video below the first part is in Mandarin.

I love my heart and soul
I love all humanity
Join hearts and souls together
Love, peace and harmony
Love, peace and harmony

10 thoughts on “Another Day

  1. My anxiety is small compared to some but I acknowledge instead of fighting. I take it in, look at it, recognize it by saying to myself, “this is anxiety, this is what it feels like”. I take in the each manifestation. The knot in my stomach, the feeling of wanting to run, the quickness of my breath…..somehow recognizing each relieves it for me.
    I am glad that you have some tools that are helping♥

  2. A cold front came through yesterday and it’s in the 60’s right now. The puppies are cuddling with me for warmth because I have a blanket for my legs. When you said you forgot to take your anxiety pill that night I immediately thought, oh yeah, I can relate. It’s happened to me.

  3. Hi Barbara….
    I have had anxiety since my boyfriend retired! I used to know exactly when and where we would be at all times….now,he says “let’s go to the cottage in the morning”….
    I used to long to hear that…now I am like ” I need to do groceries….or….I haven’t done the laundry yet” geesh…..what a spoiled bitch I am,eh? Hahaha!
    Take care of yourself….
    Linda :o)

  4. Hey Birdie! Whilst I know what anxiety and scared feels like, I don’t feel that way on a regular basis. How long have you had it? Sounds like for awhile. Hope you can get to the root issues and sounds like, the meds are helping (cool beaners). PS: I’m at a new address so I might be in your spam folder.

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