What is it with waking up more tired than when I went to bed? This last week I have been sleeping poorly, especially Sunday night. I was having nightmares and woke up at 2:30 and couldn’t get back to sleep. When I went to bed Monday night I saw that I hadn’t taken my medication for anxiety the night before and it was still in its dosette slot. I thought I had taken it. I guess it’s proof that it isn’t a placebo effect. And that it does work. And I should not stop taking it. I have a question. I know many of you do have anxiety. My question is for the ones who don’t. In the last 6 months of so do you find yourself anxious now? Does it help you understand how it is to feel so nervous and scared now when you didn’t before?
Today is an out of sorts day for me. It’s definitely October. It’s dark and cool and rainy. My heart feels heavy and I’m not really sure why. Just, all of it, you know? What are we doing to ourselves?
One thing that helps me is chanting. This chant was written by Master Sha.
“Master Sha was the recipient of the Martin Luther King, Jr. Commemorative Commission Award for his outstanding work in promoting peace.”
Master Sha asked for a chant to bring peace to the planet and this is what he was given. It makes me cry every time I listen and chant. In the video below the first part is in Mandarin.