Not much new on this side of the world. Just going to work and coming home. Today I had soup for lunch that was probably the best soup I ever made but of course I didn’t follow a recipe, I never do, so will never be able to make it again. It did have a lot of tomatoes from our garden. I do make a good soup and love eating it. One of the many keys to my weight loss.
The last two days I have been trying high dose niacin for anxiety and depression. I do notice a difference and woke up the last two mornings feeling fine. No anxiety at all. Is this how regular people feel in the morning? I am going to be a negative Nellie here but I am pessimistic and don’t expect it to last. The number of things I have tried over the years that worked then stopped working are too high to count. Placebo effect or truly working, it doesn’t matter to me. Any day without anxiety is a good day. Before taking it I did some serious research. Of course all the pharmaceutical websites say it’s dangerous to take high doses and the effects have not been proven but then I go on to read personal accounts and websites that encourage more natural cures and it’s a total different story. At any rate, I am desperate. I do know that pharmaceuticals help a little by taking the edge off but the anxiety and depression are always with me, looming under the surface.
Right now we have 3 Steller’s Jays in our yard. We made the mistake of giving them some peanuts that were leftover in our pantry and now they are enraged because the supply has run out. Their angry call is loud and high pitched and annoying. It seems rather entitled if you ask me. Just say thank you and move on, don’t demand more.
Okay. That is all for now I’m going to make more soup. Carrot Ginger this time. I’m not following a recipe.