A friend of my husband’s, knowing I adore history, especially women’s place in history, recommended that I watch Outlander. So I did. I have binge watched Season One and enjoyed it a lot. This afternoon I started watching the last two episodes of Season One and now I am really upset.
I’ve been Highly Sensitive my whole life. (If you end up following the link to the self test, I answered every question in the affirmative.) In addition to being HS, I am also an Empath. I don’t tell you this to gain admiration. Honestly, it really sucks most of the time. It’s incredibly draining. Being so aware and affected by surroundings and then being super aware of other people’s emotions is exhausting. Last week, and you probably won’t believe me, I was going into a client’s home who was having an asthma attack. Within a minute I was feeling short of breath. If you are an Empath and have experienced something similar you will understand. If not, you will think I am either crazy or a hypochondriac. Or both.
Have you watched Outlander? Well, the torture scenes were too much for me. I felt ill, physically ill watching them. I tired of power through, you would think that I would know not to watch violence by now, but now I have these horrific scenes playing in my head. I will probably have nightmares tonight.
It does beg the question, is something wrong with me or is something wrong with a society that feels okay after watching torture? If you have watched the scenes I am talking about you know that nothing was left to the imagination. Understand, I am not uneducated about historical events and I guess I can’t fault people being interested from that standpoint but have we really gone so far as to be able to watch shows like that for entertainment and not be affected? Have we watched so much violence, real and pretend, that we have grown cold in the face of brutality? The 6:00 news is watched everywhere. We see the faces of children being carried away in flood waters as rescuers try in vain to rescue them. We watch a young man being gunned down for no reason other than having his hands in his hoodie. We stare into a screen and watch young people sick and dying on the streets, addicted to drugs. And if you are wanting more? You can watch it all over again on the 10:00 news! When I go into the homes of some of the people I care for, they have the news on all day. All day! Is it an addiction? Why do people take such interest in the misery of others? Why? It hurts my head to think about it. I have told myself in the past that people need to be informed of the world’s events and we absolutely do but I don’t believe that is the reason why we are so glued to violence and horror. The thing is, I don’t have any idea what the reason actually is. There is no way I can begin to help even 1% of the worlds problems. I can’t even help 1% of the problems in my own small neighbourhood.
Anyway. I didn’t intend this post to go this direction. It was supposed to be about watching a stupid show on Netflix and how much it upset me. I do know this. If every person stopped watching the news and went out into their community and helped for one hour a day the world would be a hell of a lot better.