I am somewhat reluctant to post about my first dose of medical MJ. It went very well. Very well! No pain in my shoulder for the first time in a year and a half.  I really didn’t know what to expect. The dose I was given was very low, at least that is what I was told. But, holy smokes did it pack a punch. Now, when I was growing up I was the epitome of a good girl. All my friends were good girls. We did not do drugs.  We never even talked about it. I have never been stoned in my life. So for me taking a capsule with an apparent low dose was a first.  All I can say is I had absolutely no anxiety. It was gone completely. And it has lasted for a couple days. It was like my anxiety meter was reset to zero. I woke up for work,  no anxiety. This has not happened to me in years. Every morning is hell for me. Sometimes the anxiety is lower, other times so bad I cry getting ready.  Over the years I have been on a plethora of medications. Wellbutrin, Zoloft, Serequel, Ativan, Prozac, Paxil to name a few. They all took the edge off but the anxiety was still always there, lurking.  And right now? None. I am totally chill and relaxed and I didn’t take a thing today. Is this how you all people feel who don’t have anxiety? It’s like my brain has stopped being an 16 lane freeway and is a nice slow country road. Don’t misunderstand, I am not stoned at all. Just… not anxious. I will have to tweak the dose a bit, probably by half. It’s too strong. I don’t like feeling spacey. I don’t want to be stoned. I just want a reprieve.

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  1. My opinions on marijuana have changed a lot over the years. I too have never been drunk or high! More from trauma and fear than anything else….but I do believe that MJ has a medicinal value that can’t be ignored. I’m so glad you found some relief! ❤️

  2. I’m so happy to hear that it has had a positive effect on your pain and your anxiety. I hope you find the right dosage for you! -Jenn

  3. It’s really just another drug just like the usual prescribed ones. There are good things and bad things about every drug and each person will react slightly differently to them. Hopefully you have found a good medication for you and it’s even better that it helps with your anxiety.

  4. I’ve never taken drugs so wouldn’t know what it feels like to be high, but I do know what anxiety feels like. I’m glad you feel better.

  5. I’m an advocate for MJ. It’s great stuff if used properly and at a proper dosage. Now, if these stupid religious American congressmen, senators, and the attorney general would stop acting like it’s the devil’s cabbage and okay it for medical and recreational use, then we would have fewer people filling up our jails and prisons. The saying goes: Regulate, Educate, Medicate.

  6. Oh my God. Now I know why I was a pothead in my youth. I was trying to self-medicate. And now I am wary of MJ because of my history with it. But what you describe sounds like heaven. I can’t even imagine it, really. I am so happy for you.

  7. I’m so glad! I had wondered about that for me-the hubs said that marijuana can cause psychosis if people have bipolar so…. yeah, no thanks :o) Hope it continues to help!

    • Yes. I have heard that too. I wouldn’t recommend it unless you were under the direct care of a psychiatrist and in a safe setting. But even then, you never know what could happen with subsequent doses.

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