The Elephant in the Room

 Over the years I have posted a lot of pictures of Norbert. And yet, nobody has ever mentioned the one huge and glaring thing about him. Were you all just being polite? Because he has huge ears. They are enormous. Totally out of proportion to his head. We don’t talk about it when he is around because we don’t want to hurt his feelings feeling. When you have ears that big, people and other cats make fun of you. It’s one of the reasons he isn’t allowed outside. I worry the other cats will make fun of him. At any rate, he doesn’t read my blog so I think it’s safe to mention it here.

Got up early, went to work.  Came home, mowed the lawn, cleaned the litterbox and did a load of laundry. Now I am tired and intend to do nothing the rest of the night.

I think the Universe didn’t want me to have new bras. A few weeks back I ordered some online but no matter what I did the shipping came to $76.00 when it was supposed to be free. I tried for about 2 weeks before the problem worked itself out. Then when I did order them they somehow got lost in shipping. I called the shipping company and both numbers hung up on me. I called the store, they didn’t know what to do. Now I have to tell you, all my bras are shit. They were purchased from Costco about 3 or 4 years ago and not only are they too big since I lost weight,  there is no elastic left in them. They serve no purpose other than I can say I am wearing a bra. Let’s not go into an explanation why I am tripping over my nipples. I have a damn bra on, okay? Anyway, they finally arrived today. 4 new bras with elastic that is still elasticy. Oh, joy!

Today would have been my mom’s 71st birthday. The day itself holds sadness but I don’t feel any more sad than I usually do. Just more aware that she should be 71 and not dead. But what can you do? Most days I’m okay that she is gone. When something sad or bad happens I want my mom.  Mostly, I just try not to think about it too much. It weird. Death and being gone forever is weird.

Remember last week I said I was getting new scrub pants? Well, they arrived and they were huge on me. I have lost so much weight that I am now in a medium instead of a large. So there’s that.

It’s a beautiful day here. My husband is away for the weekend. Being alone used to send me into a tailspin of anxiety. Anxiety where I would be frozen with terror, not able to move in which I would wet myself. Now I am uneasy but not particularly anxious. I will let Norbert sleep with me. He is good for company.  With those ears he can hear things that are happening a block away so he will alert me of anything untoward. He won’t do anything about it but at least I will be forewarned.

13 thoughts on “The Elephant in the Room

  1. Oh, but Norbert carries those ears so well! I had never noticed they were so large.
    It’s funny but because of my experiences as a child, I am least anxious when I am alone. It makes perfect sense to me. But I do love having my husband here, too.
    Oh, Birdie. I hope you feel better soon. You so deserve to feel fine. And happy.

  2. We had a cat whose ears were similarly large. She also had a needle nose. And no, we didn’t tell her. She wouldn’t have believed us anyway. She KNEW she was gorgeous.
    Congratulations on your weight loss. And hugs.

  3. OMG, at least 4 total crackups in that 🙂
    Norbert is gorgeous no matter what, big ears, big ass – absolutely gorgeous!

    Death is weird isn’t it? So hard to comprehend. But what you feel for you Mom is absolutely beautiful, you’re a good daughter.

    I don’t know why, but I always buy me bra’s too small. I wind up only being able to hook the top hook and then it MUST come off by at least 5:pm. And when I am home for the day, no way am I going to wear one – UPS man be damned.

    Love you.

  4. I never noticed his ears! But now that you’ve pointed it out, you’re right. They are big. Poor bugger. But then I have a cat with big ears so maybe I’m just used to it.

    We never stop missing a loved one that has died. We just get used to a new normal.

  5. Wow yes they are huge. Glad he’s not reading. But at the same time he is beautiful and his ears are majestic. It’s hard isn’t it, 71 is so young and it’s natural to think and feel sad about all of the time you could have spent together. Life and death are such puzzles. Why, why, why? It’s so unfair. Sending lots of big hugs Birdie.

  6. Awww, poor Norbert. So he never “grew into his ears”? I for one, would be ecstatic about pants being too big because I had lost so much weight. Congratulations!! Are you able to send them back and exchange the size? -Jenn

  7. All this time I thought it was the camera angle that made his ears big. When David went on his fishing trips, he would call me when he got bored while fishing. I only felt scared being alone at night so I would bring a knife with me and hide it in case I needed it.

  8. Happy birthday to your Mom in heaven. She’s a Taurus, like me! And I wonder what the alone anxiety is about? You are safe, dear Birdie. I hope you can sink into the peace of having the house to yourself, knowing it will only be for a short while. Hugs.

  9. I love Norbert’s ears and never really noticed how big they are, to be honest. Probably because I am such a cat lover and have had cats all my life that it really never stood out to me. He is a gorgeous cat. Sending you much love and many warm hugs.

  10. Our cat has a small head so his ears look huge too. He also has those little tufts of hair on the tips of his ears which makes him look like a bobcat or something. I love the white on your Norbert, he’s a very handsome cat even if he is an ungrateful bastard.

  11. Dear Birdie, Norbert’s ears are a thing of beautiful. Unique in all the world.

    I’ve lived with cats for forty-five years: Dulcy, Bartleby, Tybalt, Noah, Pam, Jeremiah, Ishmael, Laz, Eliza Doolittle, Raissa, Maggie, Ellie, and Matthew. All dear friends. All family. They have all blessed my life with their uniqueness. I’m glad you, too, live with a cat.

    My mother died when I was thirty-two, and nearly fifty years later, I still miss her. I do not grieve deeply or despondently anymore because she is with me in the Holy Oneness of All Creation. I know that she loves me and holds me close throughout all the ups and downs of my life. I hope you, too, know the presence of your mother. Peace.

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