It is. I’ve been on since June and not only am I checking it obsessively, it is depressing me. I can’t handle all the negativity but also, it’s just so…shallow. I’m a shallow person on Facebook. I don’t really care how everyone is doing. I just randomly check and don’t take time to really pay attention to how people are doing as individuals. Just, scroll, scroll, scroll. Like a few things. Love a few things. Scroll, scroll, scroll. So I am doing Lent* early this year and giving up Facebook. I did that last year with Pinterest. I just deleted the icon and forced myself not to turn it back on. It was hard at first. Who doesn’t love pinning shit that you’ll never use? I eventually totally forgot about it for almost 9 months. I only remembered it recently because I was looking for something and thought Pinterest might have it. When I went to check the app was so outdated it didn’t work and I didn’t bother updating it. And now I don’t even remember what it was I wanted to look up.
So, I have deleted the Facebook apps off my iPad and iPod. I have no plans to go back to it. But who knows?
Last night, just as I was about to fall asleep my boy sent me a text. “Mama? Are you there?” I ended up chatting with him for an hour and a half. He’s having a bit of a time. But today I was so tired I couldn’t think straight. When I got home I sat for about 20 minutes then went to bed. Norbert and I slept the sleep of the dead for 2 hours. I wish I could sleep like that at night. I feel so un-tired. This is so not normal for me. I’m always tired. Always. I have had every blood test known to man and yet I am always, always tired. So it’s nice when I am not tired, even if it’s just for a few hours.
I have my weight loss group tonight. I have lost 25 pounds but have plateaued. I’m hoping that things will start up again. I still have at least 15 pounds to go.
And now, I have laundry to do.