I was at one of your blogs a couple weeks back and you posted this. (Sorry, I can’t remember whose blog it was. Let me know if it was you.) It was one of those times when you are going along in life and…screeeeech! It is such a simple concept but so profound.
I have never been a planner. I am not at all adventurous but I am a fly by the seat of your pants kind of girl. Deal with problems after they come and try to find solutions. It doesn’t really work well. At all. Planning ahead works for a financial and a calories budget. So even though it is not anywhere close to the New Year I am making a resolution. Plan ahead. I downloaded an app for budgeting money and have been documenting my food intake for 2 weeks now. This is not a whim but a necessity. And it won’t be hard to do. Both apps are very easy to use and only take a few minutes out of my day. I am writing it out here to be accountable.
But this is just a part of something…
Do you ever feel like you are at the beginning of a brand new path? I can’t describe the feeling but it is based on a series of things that have happened over the last few weeks. I am losing weight, I got all my debt paid off and cancelled my line of credit and credit card. (I still have one with a credit limit of $500.00.) I had 2 great counseling sessions that will lead to positive changes. I have met several new people that are just good people. I have been reading life-changing books.
The thing is, I am still depressed but I am seeing light. I do still feel broken. Not sure what to do about that. Or if there is anything to do about that. I guess the best I can do to explain it is I just feel lighter. And maybe happier. I guess the new anti-depressants are working and it really feels like there has been a shift in my life.
I want to thank all of you, my sisters, who never stop loving and encouraging me. Your comments bring tears of joy to my eyes and make me laugh. I love you and appreciate you. xo