Well today was my youngest child’s last day of school. 13 years of school went by in a blink of an eye. She seems happy and pleased. I am feeling sad and overwhelmed. But that has how I have been feeling for a few weeks now and it isn’t really related to my daughter graduating. The Black Dog is sniffing around and he brings with him his bitch Anxiety. I hate both of them. It is this feeling of never being enough of doing enough. Right now I have a load of sheets sitting beside me that I have just taken out of the dryer. Martha Stewart would show me how to fold them properly and maybe even put a pretty bow around them. I will likely just roll them into a ball and shove them in the closet. At work I fold a lot of laundry and I do it properly. At home I am too tired to give a shit.
This is one of my daughter’s grad gifts. It is, “Oh, the Place You’ll Go!” by Dr. Suess. I read Dr. Suess to my kids the day they came home from the hospital and kept reading to them. (Both were reading at a university level in Grade 4.) It seemed only appropriate that I send her off with one last book. The lyrics are from my own class song the year I graduated (1989) so I am giving it to her.
My ear infection is improving and I made the decision to not stay on the oral antibiotics for 20 days. I will continue with the ear drops. But in other news my back is seizing up. Remember last year when I slipped and fell in urine? It is the same injury giving me trouble. If I could take some time off work to rest I could probably get the pain under control but I have to just push through it. Oh, well.
This post took me about 3 hours to write because I kept getting distracted. It is now time for dinner. The laundry is still sitting beside me.