End of an Era

I just drove 40 minutes to see my daughter in her final dance recital before she gets her teacher’s license in Highland dancing. She has been dancing since she was 3. She originally started because of many health issues. At the time she was in the 3rd percentile. The reason I put her in Highland dancing was to help strengthen her core. It  turned that wee little sprite of a girl  into a strong young woman who is still tiny but strong and muscular.

I find these recitals overwhelming. I came early to get a seat on the aisle because I get anxiety being close to people and making small talk. I currently have a wicked ear infection and it feels like I have a nail in my ear. But for all that I have to see her dance. I know I am going to cry. I am so unbelievably proud. She is an award winning dancer, on the Principle’s list and just a great human. How I managed it I don’t know. I think my parents can take the credit. If my mom was alive she would be bursting.

After this we will rush back to our community and I will see a play she is in. And in  18 days she will graduate high school. I wonder what is next? I always thought getting my kids to graduation things would go smoothly from there but this stage has its own worries and fears. Maybe even more so. Because she is now an adult and on her own and making her own way. Any control I had, real or imagined is gone. It’s scary!

14 thoughts on “End of an Era

  1. You have every right to be proud, dear Birdie! And I am so sorry about your ear infection, I hope it clears up quickly.

  2. Dear Birdie, I am confident that your daughter would give you more credit in her upbringing than you do.
    And I am quite certain that your heart is close to bursting with love and pride.
    Ear infections as so painful. I hope yours is better very, very quickly.

  3. One of the funniest posts I’ve read was when your daughter chopped up an eyelet bedskirt to replace a piece of her dance costume. I still giggle about that to this day! I’m glad she’s grown up to be such a fine woman.

  4. Every stage of life has its own unique challenges but sounds like your daughter is well prepared to handle whatever comes her way! You have every right to be proud of her! And of yourself too!

  5. Wow. Well, congratulations! If I imagine my daughter graduating from high school, I’m afraid my heart might stop. I have enough trouble now that she can walk, and wave, and start to speak a bit. May she never grow up. Ah me.
    I hope in my deepest heart you are able to cherish these incredible moments.

  6. Congratulations to your daughter and I hope you enjoy all of these “proud mama” moments. You both deserve them and while some of this may seem worrisome, she has a good head on her shoulders, thanks to you!

  7. Your daughter sounds wonderful and you should be proud. My 17 year old is going through a very rebellious stage and I’m longing for the old her to return and just praying this is a stage. But I love her and am still very proud, but I just don’t like some of choices.

  8. I love highland dancing!
    I know from that sitting on the aisle thing, but to have to do it with ear pain – my heart goes out to you.
    Birdie, that wonderful girl, is all the best of you. You did a good job, because if you hadn’t, she wouldn’t be who she is. And it is scary, losing that control, but like you said she ‘is making her own way’. And I’m sure she knows you will always be there in case she stumbles.

  9. Congrats to your daughter. You have every reason to feel proud. My mom used to do highland dancing and now every time she hears bagpipes she cries but then bagpipes do sound mournful.
    You are so right that having adult children comes with a whole new set of parenting skills. It’s so hard to sit back and let them fly on their own. I’m pretty sure you and your husband are the reason your kids turned out so well so pat yourself on the back for that.

  10. Ah Birdie, I know just how you’re feeling. But you must take credit for your wonderful girl. She’s who she is because of your guidance and love. Be proud. Trust that you prepared her for what’s next. I know she’ll continue to fill your heart.

  11. Congratulations to both your daughter and to you. You are such a great mom and although the next stage is scary, it is clear you have given her the tools to be successful. I think of all the advise and guidance you have given me over the years and how you have picked me up when I was down and celebrated me during good times, I can only image how blessed your daughter is to have you by her side. Love to you my friend.

  12. I’m really sorry about your ear infection. I hope by the time you are reading this you are feeling better. I know only too well the pain of ear infections.

    Sending you healing thoughts! ❤

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