Today I Went to Walmart and I Did Not Die

I haven’t set foot in Walmart in years. The main reason being is I have issues with how they run their company. Low wages with no benefits and forcing manufacturers to sell so close to cost that they can barely survive. There is no need to go into it, you have likely heard it all before. If you haven’t you can Google it.

The other reason is it puts my anxiety into a place where I can’t control it. It is too bright, too loud, too much visual stimulation, too many smells of chemicals and perfumes and too many people. Too much everything.  My daughter needed to go to a shoe store in the  mall to get shoes for her prom that is coming up in June and I thought while I was there I would venture into Walmart to find a knitting loom. Thankfully my daughter was with me or I don’t think I would have been able to do it. I found what I wanted and got out of there really fast but it left its mark. I am still not stable from two days ago and I probably should not have gone at all but the mall is at the other end of the city and I have no plans to go that direction for the year or so. I am still shaky and my heart beating all bippity, boppity. bop, bop, bibbity. I am also cold. Another sign of anxiety.

Anyway, I am on my days off now. It is time for a bath then bed.

I did get my loom. I have no idea how it works.

14 thoughts on “Today I Went to Walmart and I Did Not Die

  1. I love that title! I agree about Walmart being “too much of everything.” It’s a very stimulating place.
    I get cold when I’m anxious, too.

  2. I’m glad you have days off. I don’t have one of those stores around me so I don’t have to worry about making the decision to go in. Sometimes I’ve wanted to. I have seldom wanted to go shopping, except for shoes. The rest is online or once or twice a year…

    • I do the majority of my shopping online now even though my community has more shopping space per capita then anywhere else in Canada.

  3. I order most of my food from Schwan’s and it is delivered. This way I only have to go to Walmart or the dollar store with a short list and I stick to that list. It has saved me a lot of time, anxiety and money not having to wander around in the stores.

  4. I told my husband that I think our local Walmart must be built on an Indian burial ground. It is awful in that store. People are angry and fighting and rude. Our store shelves are more likely than not empty of the exact product I want. Kids are crying, couples are arguing, and I always get that damn wobbly cart with the broken wheel! Our store is dirtier than others too I noticed. It’s also on the very edge of town so it is a pain in the ass to go there. It causes me anxiety to go there…it’s like I need to psych myself up to get ready to go to Walmart. Any place that makes me feel that bad is a place I don’t often frequent.

  5. I hear you. I know exactly what you’re talking about. And when you’re already vulnerable- big public places can just tip you right over. Take care, dear. Hang in.

  6. Can’t remember the last time I was in WalMart…. but I totally feel you on the brightness factor! Ugh. Gets my heart thumping just imaging it all. Glad you survived and got your loom, I hope you have fun with it and can show us some new projects! 🙂 Keep on bouncing back, you can do it, day by day ❤

  7. I’ve been to Walmart and I hate it too. That place drives me crazy. I would rather go to the smaller shops in town or buy things online and spend more money than go to Walmart. David, on the other hand, goes there almost every weekend.

  8. I read your last post about that horribly abusive client, and how you met her meanness with kindness, and of course it takes a toll. You are a sensitive soul, and an emotionally permeable one, you literally absorb the mood around you. I know what that feels like, and I can’t imagine having to deal with people such as you described on a regular basis. I am glad you will get to take some time to restore yourself, to be kind to yourself, as kind as you were to that woman. Bless you, Birdie.

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