This is going to be a short post because I am about as tired as I can get without falling asleep. I am just waiting for a decent time to go to bed without feeling like a seven year old.
Work has been grueling. Today was my Friday and I am so glad because if I had to work tomorrow I probably would have to call in sick even though I am not physically sick but weary and edging on depression. I am doing all the right things, sleeping well, eating right, exercising (though I didn’t today), taking my supplements, meditating and practicing Mindfulness. These things that come naturally to most can be really hard for me sometimes. Days where it takes all my mental, physical and emotional energy to just live like a normal person. At work today and yesterday I was working in a senior’s facility instead of working in private households so I was working with a team instead of by myself. There were 8 of us all together and the staff room is very small. It gets very loud and there is so much going on. My Highly Sensitive personality has trouble processing it all and it was so exhausting. By the time my shift ended today I could barely make it to my car and I don’t remember driving home. I pulled of my scrubs and got into my pajamas and crawled into bed. I was so keyed up I couldn’t sleep but just shivered from either the cold or exhaustion. I must have drifted off because I do feel rested now.
My daughter has her boyfriend over and this is where I enjoy having a daughter. She prefers to be at home and because her curfew is before dark they hang out here. And he is a fine boy. He is so polite and kind. He has such a gentle heart. He was raised by just his Mama and has only seen his father once in the last 15 years. People often say that children need a mother and a father but it simply isn’t true. They just need to be surrounded by love. This is my daughter’s first real boyfriend and I could not have chosen a nicer young man for her. Seriously, it brings tears to my eyes because he is just a good kid. I met his mama and she is down to earth and funny and is a woman that doesn’t take any shit from her sons. They have so much respect for her.
Well, this was supposed to be a short post and yet here I am four paragraphs later. Tomorrow is my day off and I have physio. My shoulder is about 90% better. I can lift again and almost have my full range of motion back. If it is nice tomorrow I will do some housework and rake up about half a million leaves in our back yard from Moses, the old oak tree. And I intend to sleep in! Oh, joy! Getting up at 6/6:30 is not fun. Even the birds are not up that early this time of the year.
I bought a Set For Life ticket where you can win $1000/week for 25 years. I did not win but I did win a free ticket. There is still hope that I can retire early and sleep in every single day.