Is it Wrong to Want to Go to Bed at 6:00?

The heaviness continues but there were moments of the day that were a little lighter. Mostly heavy though. I practice all the Mindfulness I can and really try to stay in the moment and yet…

It happens every fall and I should be used to it. I have done so much research into mood disorders for this time of the year. For me it is depression with a side of Seasonal Affective Disorder. I take all the proper supplements including a minimum of 4000 iu of vitamin D, calcium, kelp, magnesium… Need I list them all? No, probably not.

The only place I feel safe and not weighed down by anxiety is when I am in my bed so I spend a lot of time there. Well, not really. I was up just after 6:00 this morning. It was still dark when I left for work. Grabbed a coffee. Thank god for coffee even if it is just 7-11 coffee. Hey, it’s $1.00 and every 7th cup is free!

And I don’t like myself when I get like this because I know that I have everything to be thankful and grateful for. It’s not that I am not grateful because I know that I am better than most of the people living in this planet. But that is the problem. I know that the world is in such a troubled state. This upcoming election has really shaken me up. We are in a place where Canada is not Canada anymore. We (and please don’t be offended my lovely American readers) are becoming more like the United States. Our healthcare is going down the toilet and slowly becoming a two-tiered system. That’s what happens when it is so underfunded and people get fed up with the waits. Why wait when you can pay to get to the head of the line if you can afford to pay for it?Ā  We are throwing troops into war and sacrificing them in wars. Canada used to go in as peacekeepers. Not anymore. Anyway, I could go on but I won’t. Canada is no longer one of the best places in the world to live. Far from it.

So blah, blah, blah. I am getting more depressed that no amount of medication can fix. I think it is time for a hot bath then bed.

10 thoughts on “Is it Wrong to Want to Go to Bed at 6:00?

  1. Yup, I agree with Debra. Take a media break and don’t turn on any screens, tvs, newspapers, etc. Don’t even talk to people who you don’t like except for at work. Turn off your phone at home and read a book, go for a walk, do something you enjoy. I find that media breaks are necessary for my own mental health, what little there is of it that is.
    So jump into bed at 6pm and sleep, or whatever.

  2. We too are going further down the American path than I am comfortable with on the health care front, war front.
    And bed is sometimes the very best place to be.
    I like the suggestion of a media fast. I may take it up myself.
    Oh, and would you like another Floriade magnet to add to your collection?

  3. Media fasts rock. I swear, I think it’s saved me on multiple occasions.

    I hope the weight lifts soon but in the mean time don’t feel too guilty for not feeling grateful and what-not, we get it, we’ve been there, sometimes it’s nice to let ourselves have permission to feel the hurt and validate those feelings šŸ™‚

    Sending you sunshine šŸ™‚

  4. Birdie, it sounds to me like you are being way too hard on yourself. Either sleeping too much or not enough is part of depression as well as sleeping at different times. Try to stay away from TV programs, including the news, that bring you down. Perhaps watch something funny (I put on a good video on my Friday post…Microsoft Monopoly by the Royal Canadian Air Farce). Many people said they enjoyed it and it made me laugh. I do watch the news but not in its entirety. Only the main things and that it is. But if watching even that little affects you then steer clear from it. Take a nice shower, try aromatherapy (if you can and are not allergic to this)…lavender is good for relaxation, citrus is good for perking up, etc. Take a nice long walk for no reason and just attune yourself to the smell, sounds and beauty of nature. Listen for birds singing, look at and listen to the wind rustling through the trees, watch the leaves, their beautiful colours and see them fall. Take a deep breath and smell the crisp fresh air. Take a shower and relax. Sending you a warm hug and much love.

  5. I agree with the others in regard to the media. Bed is sublime and comforting and if you can, 6 pm is great! Speaking from a bed lover!

  6. I also vote for a media break. I never watch the news anymore, I read it. Then I can take it in at my pace, not in some 23 second sound bite. And if I think something is bullshit, I can delve further into it, if I want. I found Facebook to be terrible for that!
    So much money is wasted in our health care system! When you hear of doctors submitting phone bills for $10,000 because they had to leave their phones on while they were on tropical vacations, well, you just know there is incredible waste. Our system needs an overhaul.
    Get into your body and get out of your mind. Walk, hike, do a water aerobics class, something. It will give you some endorphins that will get you through the long upcoming winter!

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