I am in one of my moods. Is it PMS? Peri-menopause hormones? Life? I don’t have any idea but I am in a foul mood. Everything is pissing me off and I just want to be left alone but that isn’t going to happen. Right now I have a list of things that are pissing me off.
- Stephen Harper. Our piece of shit Prime Minister and his scuzzy cabinet. (Think Donald Trump with nicer hair but just as evil.)
- The mental and the emotional energy it takes to just get though the day. And it makes me even more pissed off that I know I am only having First World Problems and that I should just be grateful. The world is turning to shit and there is nothing anyone can do about it because we are way passed fucked and nobody has the energy. Elizabeth posted today about rewriting your story but what if you can barely get out of bed in the morning? And when you do try to rewrite your story and open a Word document your computer does a fucking update and you have to wait. (Yes, I am speaking allegorically.)
- Pain in my neck and back from falling over a month ago. It is a W0rks@fe issue so I can’t really talk about it but I can tell you I am well within my rights to press this further if I have to. I was made to work in a place that I had reported to be unsafe three separate times. For the first time in my life I understand what “pain and suffering” means. Just going to physio brings me close to tears because it is so painful.
Or maybe it is just that time of the year again. It has been 4 years on the 27th since my mom died. The light on our kitchen shines a certain way this time of year and it reminds me of the days when she was getting ready to die. I have to purposely turn different lights on in the house so I don’t have to see the shadows.
I will go to bed now. Maybe I will wake up in a better mood. It is a good night for Ativan.