Today

So what is going on in my life today? I am feeling a little better than yesterday. Thank you to all you beautiful souls that sent me love and encouragement. You have no idea how much it means and how much it helps. Being in depression is a lonely place and you all make me feel less alone. I think that is one of the keys to feeling well. To feel loved, supported and not alone.

I am doing laundry today. And do you know what I love. Love. We have an umbrella clothesline and I love standing between the bedding. My own secret little world. And it smells so nice! It reminds me of being little and standing outside with my mom or my grandma while they hung clothes on the line. Just thinking about it makes me giggle. Maybe I should take a picture next time I am inside my secret hide-a-way. Or maybe you know what I am talking about?

That reminds me of a story. When I was little I always liked going into closets. This may have been a safe place from my violent father but closets were always a fun place to go into. When my father left and my mom remarried my step-dad knew I liked to hide in closets so he made me a little place underneath the stairs. He even put carpet and a light in there. My step-dad is my hero. That is just one of 1000’s of reasons.

My new book logging app is so wonderful. I am getting close to 300 books logged. It also has a place for a wishlist. It is such an easy app to use. You just scan the book and up it pops. My library consists of a lot of rare and unusual books so I have to enter them manually because there were no ISBN scans so it is a little bit time consuming. But it is fun because it is books!

12 thoughts on “Today

  1. You are a person after my own heart…Some of my favorite childhood times were spent in the closet in the hall of my grandmother’s home and outside beneath clothes lines…I was usually hanging from them, but that is another story…I’m glad you are happier today.

  2. I used to love walking in between the sheets and towels my mom would hang outside. It made me feel invisable. I also hid in my closet when my mom went on her rampages. I actually had a certain spot she couldn’t find me.

  3. Ha! Fio was hiding in the lower rung of clothes hanging in the closet the other day, took us a few minutes to figure out where he went to. I remember enjoying hiding in my parents’ closet. They had a dresser under all the hanging clothes so I could crawl on that and be amongst the clothes all in the dark, was very soothing 🙂

  4. Dearest Birdie,

    I am so happy to hear that things are better today. Isn’t it wonderful to have the support of others, and to not feel alone? And isn’t it a comfort to know that others are going through the same thing and that people care about you? Sending you much love and a warm hug. I love doing laundry, and I did some today! I love the fresh smell of the clothes and I enjoy folding them and putting them where they belong. 🙂

  5. Ohh I love your step dad already and I know nearly nothing about him. I used to hide in my closet too and it became a safety net for me. Today, Colt loves to play in his closet (it’s still a novelty – the place we used to live in had no closets for some reason) but he does it because it’s fun and it fills my heart with joy to realize he doesn’t know the fear of a scary parent. I am so happy to know you had your step dad. 🙂 What a difference a kind heart can make.

    I am on the hunt for an air-clothing dryer at the thrift stores. I also adore the smell of fresh laundry 🙂

  6. I love that story about your step-dad. Inspiring.

    I have a shirt that says, “My favorite movie is books.” Yet I don’t read as much as I’d like. Reading through Dickens’ books again. My “to read” list grows faster than I can keep up with it.

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