Today was my day off and it was just so nice. Apart from trying very hard to not get pulled into the unknown of yesterday I hada lovely quiet day with my husband. (I do have to say that practicing Mindfulness is my saving grace. I just have to be in the moment. That said, I had a dream last night where the surgeon told me I had two months to live like it was a good thing.) Anyway, we went on a date for lunch and then to the nursery where we spent more money than we should have but what better way to spend money then on flowers?
Today I coloured my hair because I was way past the point of looking frumpy. And I started cleaning the bathroom and somehow got sidetracked but it will get done before bed. Addendum – More likely tomorrow.
And I don’t know but lately I am just feeling good. I really am! Happy even. I am terrified to write that because I feel like I am waiting for the other shoe to fall. For the first time in a long time I am not feeling overly tired or depressed or even any real grief. I miss my mom every single day but I no longer mourn for her. My marriage is in a good place, I don’t mind my job and my daughter is doing so well in school and in life and making good decisions. Other than the news yesterday from my doctor I wouldn’t change much. But yes, the news from my doctor does throw a wrench into it. Is this the other shoe getting ready to fall? *sigh*
OK, it is time for my bath then bed. 2 days off are over again and back to work tomorrow.