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Heart In HandDo you buy your groceries at one store or do you shop around? What store(s)? 

I used to shop almost daily before I moved to where I live now but now I go about once a week. I shop at a locally owned small grocery store because I want to keep my money in my community.  This is the store. And Costco. I love Costco.

Also, do you ever just go and sit on the beach and watch the ocean for hours? (I know where Birdie lives and if I lived there, I’d be blogging from the beach every day!)

Yes, I live very close to the ocean but I must admit I take it for granted sometimes. It rains here so much and keeps only the most hearty away. That said, I do go to the ocean and enjoy it so very much. Whenever I visit the other provinces I feel at a bit of loose ends. I miss the ocean! When I return home I feel like I can breath again.

llcooljoe – Do you believe in heaven and hell?

I used to. Now? I hope there is a heaven and maybe a hell for the most wicked (Hitler, pedophiles…) but where is the line of who goes where? I guess I still do because I am still not sure I am going to heaven. I think that God is most likely very displeased with me because I no longer am living a Christian life.

Ain’t No Shrinking Violet –  Do you have any dreams left for your life, and are you likely to complete them (it’s ok if they’re not complete-able dreams)?

I dream of a world where there is more love than hate. I have a dream that my kids will do well on their journey on this planet. As for myself, I dream of a life free from depression and anxiety.

What gives you the most pleasure in life, and what gives you the most pain? 

My family and my home gives me so much pleasure and sometimes they give me the most pain. Love is so big and it causes us so many emotions. My work also gives me much pleasure but I often give so much that I feel burnt out.

How do you hang on through your depression?

I don’t really know. I have been going through another depression in the last several weeks but I have not really mentioned it on my blog. I just take one day at a time and do my best to take care of myself.  Hot baths, going to bed early and just being in the moment. If things get really bad (as they are now) I see a counselor.

37paddington – What do you think happens when we die?

New Skitch1I don’t know, I really have no idea. (Do any of us?) If we are reincarnated I think we stay close to our loved ones. I have lots of thoughts and feelings but they all seem silly. I just know I have a close connection to my great, great, great, great grandmother. I have a picture of her and people say we look alike, especially before I lost weight. If there is a heaven and I hope there is because I do not want to come back to earth and do this all again, I hope I get to see all the ones we loved most in the world again. I miss my mom and my grandparents.

thesmittenimage – What are the three qualities that each of your kids possess which you admire/love the most?

My son is such a kind soul. He hasn’t a mean bone in his body. His school used to call to tell my what a great kid he is. He is also very easy-going and helpful. I can ask him to help me with anything. He is always happy to help. He is also very funny. He and I have the same dry sense of humour and have lots of fun on Pinterest together.

My daughter is a fighter. When she was born she had many, many health issues but she didn’t let it slow her down. She doesn’t give up on anything. She is also an amazing dancer. She has been dancing Highland since she was 3. When I watch her I cry every single time. She is also goal-oriented and already has her sights on what she wants to do in her life. I have never been this way and take things more one day a time.

Grannie Annie – How many of your blogger friends do you spend personal time with?

None. Nobody I know reads my blog and I plan to keep it that way!

 Jan – What is the first record you bought or piece of music that you remember, and a positive memory associate with it

 When I was small my dad listened to classical music and I have loved it ever since. Though he left our family when I was about 5 or 6 I continued my love of classical.  Pachelbel’s Canon is one of my favourite pieces. Also, Beethoven’s Moonlight Sonata. I can barely breathe when I listen to that one. Beethoven was losing his hearing when he wrote it. It is very dark. At the beginning the piece has some hope to it but it gets darker as it goes on. It is amazing. After listening I have to listen to something by Vivaldi. Incidentally, I can’t stand Chopin.

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  1. God is definitely not mad at you. {hug} I have met some who call themselves Christian and then seem to say things and do things that contradict that. You are kind, funny, loving, and have deep feelings. You might not be living a life where you attend a certain church or follow a specific dogma, but that matters not. Well, to me anyway. You are part of God. God is not Christian specifically. I don’t think so.

  2. I love what Mary said.
    And I, too, at the very heart of it, dream of living a life free of anxiety and depression which feel like yokes around my neck, holding me back from my full and wonderful life.

  3. I love doing this question and answer thingy. It’s fun and I’m learning a lot about my blogging buddies. I’m going to be doing this for a while every Friday.

  4. I don’t think God gets displeased with us, nor do I think God has a religion, or a gender for that matter.

    So nice reading about you Birdie.

  5. Some of these are really heavy questions! Brave you for answering them. And if god is displeased with you for any reason I shall personally punch him! 🙂

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