My nasty mood has passed. I think I was just doing too much. Sometimes you just need a day of resting and sitting wrapped up in a blanket with old slippers on keeping your feet toasty.
Last night I went to a Christmas party and the introvert in me did not hate it! Yay! It was with my tribe of women that I love, love, love. (T.O.P.S. weight loss.) We ate and exchanged gifts and gossiped and giggled. I say gossiped lightly because I rarely speak harshly about others. I know how awful it is to be judged. However, gossip-lite we did and laughed and spilled things and had hot flashes together. It was good for my soul. Oh! I also got three pins for half-way to goal, 20 pounds lost and most weight loss in my division for the month of November. I know they are just silly token pins but they make me happy.
I just got a call from my employer and I get next Christmas off so that is something. It makes working Christmas this year a little easier. This would have been a lot more difficult if my kids were small. Now they are 17 and 18 I don’t think they really care a whole lot. Sleeping in is a lot more exciting than getting up early to see what Santa bought.
And here is something. My daughter, my C- and C student made the HONOUR ROLL! She had been going to a private school and she and I both got fed up with the right-wing bureaucracy so she went to public school this year. Her grades! Three A’s and one B. And a high B! I went to the parent/teacher interviews and all her teachers adore her. This is the same child that skulks around rolling her eyes at me. I would have thought it would have been the other way around. She should have left the public school and gone to a private school and got better grades. I think of all the money I pissed away. We were on bursary so it wasn’t loads but still, what a waste. When I told my daughter she made the honour roll she about fell over. She had been trying so hard but she always had.
I have started my Winter Solstice Box. I came across this quote so I wrote it on the box itself.
“Beyond the pain, life continues to be sweet. The basics are still there. Beauty, food, and friendship, reservoirs of love and understanding. Later, possibly not yet, you are going to need others who will encourage you to make new beginnings. Welcome them. They will help you move on, to cherish happy memories and confront the painful ones with more than bitterness and anger.” ― Rosamunde Pilcher, Winter Solstice
This year the box will have far less resentments filling it. Honestly, I only remember a couple of the things I wrote last year so perhaps the ritual worked.