It has been so long since I posted a good old honest post. For over a year now my family has been reading my posts and I have not always been completely honest. Well, I have been honest but I have held back on all that I would have liked to say. And I can’t tell you how much that has affected me. My husband is tired of hearing about my hormones. He has to live with me and I am pretty much going crazy. So many days I wish I could just run away from everything. Instead I just keep putting one foot in front of the other and pushing my way through. Except there is no through because there is no end in sight. I am just so fucking tired all the time. My brain is in a fog. I take these tests online to measure my intellect and I fall below average every time. I never used to be like that. I meet people and they talk to me and I have no idea who they are. There face does not even look familiar. Sometimes I meet people I do know and I can’t remember their name.
I wish I knew what was wrong with me. I am not kidding when I say I could have early-onset Alzheimers. I feel old, fat, ugly and stupid.
It is days like this when I miss my mom more than ever.
And I am trying to make changes to the look of my blog here at WordPress and no matter what I do nothing changes!